Me Against the World

So I've already been here a week and I love it. But I'm very much stressed out. I officially start school on Monday . . . I looked at the syllabus last night and holy crap I'm in for an interesting semester to say the least. I start orientation at Hooters on Monday and I'm freaking nervous about it. The girls who work there are so pretty and they have huge boobs. I definitely don't have the boobs lol :-( Finally, I had my interview with my company on Wednesday in Charlotte. I am still getting settled here, but I would LOVE this opportunity to move to Charlotte and be on my own with this job. It's such a great job. However, I think another girl in the office is gonna get it. I mean, c'mon let's be realistic. I'd be the new girl in the office and she's been there for 3 years already. Although, the interviewer told my dad he was really impressed with my interview and how I carried myself.

AHHHHHHHHHH on top of that, I haven't had time to go out and make friends so it's not like I can go out and get a drink with a girlfriend and vent. Thank God I have my MSOS girls because they're definitely keeping me sane this week. My Tampa friends really haven't tried to contact me except a few girls. I kinda saw it coming anyway. They're busy with life, but still. You ask me to keep in touch but won't put forth the effort yourself? Meh, it is what it is, right?

Artsy Matt wrote me on Thursday asking why I haven't tried talking to him. Of course, I went to my dad for advice on what to write back. I liked him on our first date, I really did. But the more we talked over the week, the more I realized he's just not my type at all. Not only that, but I've barely had time to get settled, let alone try and talk to him. I just can't handle that right now. So I wrote him back (with the guidance of my dad lol!!) and said that I'm just so busy with school, work, and this move that it's just really hectic in my life right now. He wrote back that it was ok and that was it. As horrible as it is for me to say this, I kinda hope that he leaves me alone now. We'll see though.

I've been working out pretty much everyday and I'm still not losing weight. I'm going to cut back on my eating and see if that helps. I need to look good for Hooters! And on that note, I am hitting up the pool to get a tan. I am giving the palest of pale people a run for their money. Maybe I'll meet some super awesome amazing uber cool friends there! ;-)

. . . . although there IS a hot trainer at the gym . . . .

Every Mile A Memory

I've never been much of a sleeper, and it's really only been recently that I've been able to even fall asleep. Tonight I have so much running through my head and I'm starting to get a sick feeling in my stomach, so I thought I'd turn here.

I leave for NC on Saturday. THIS SATURDAY. I was completely fine with moving all the way up until now. Don't get me wrong, I'm still excited, but now I'm extremely nervous. I'm leaving my friends, some whom I've known most of my life, and I'm leaving my sister. My mom will be up in NC in Octoberish, but my sister's staying here because she has an amazing job, and she has her own apartment with her boyfriend, so moving is out of the question. I'm scared to leave everything behind. I know I'm going to make some more amazing friends, but it's still nervewracking. I'll love NC, but it's just the fact I'm leaving everything I've ever known behind that's making me all icky inside.

Plus, it'll really show who my TRUE friends are. I have had this going away party planned for a month and it's tomorrow. I actually let one of my friends know a few days before I posted the event on facebook and she promised she would come (she was the one who introduced me to my ex and we were best friends for quite some time. She road tripped with me to Texas to meet up with him and her boyfriend when they returned from Iraq). Welllllll fast forward to this week. I text her a few times, asking whether she was coming because I really needed to know and I was hoping to see her before I leave for good. She writes me tonight "Sorry I won't be able to make it. Chris surprised me with a weekend in #@@!(#(!. I'll miss you though!" Wait what?? You knew about this for a month. I said you could have brought him, so this means you probably didn't even mention wanting to go. You knew I've been trying to get in touch with you all week. I know you keep your phone on you and you constantly bitch about your boyfriend and how much you can't stand him and want to leave him for a guy you met on W.O.W. THIS shows me that you really don't have any feelings whether I'm leaving or not. Whatever, like I said, this just shows who my friends are and who they aren't. . . . or something like that?

Alright, I'm going to TRY and go to bed again. I feel like I want to throw up because I'm so nervous, but hopefully it'll be daylight soon and I won't have to worry about sleeping lol. Yay party!!

P.S. I know this is supposed to be about me looking for love, but I haven't even had time for myself this past week. lol, I promise once I move this will turn more toward that :-)