Boys blowin' up my phone

Sooooo, I'm not sure if I'm pathetic or what, but I was bored and signed up for a dating site. I'm really just looking to see what kind of people live around here, not at all wanting to meet someone on the site. Besides, I think my parents and friends would think it's weird. Ok changed my mind, I just deleted my profile lol. I'll just meet someone in person. I have no idea who these people are on these sites anyway.

My friend asked me if I was interested in a guy (Jesse) who constantly writes on my facebook and I write on his. I think either she wants me to hook her up with him or she wants me to date him. Unfortunately for me, he has a kid and we've tried to hang out before but he just never followed through with plans and would leave me hanging. He's so funny though and we definitely make each other laugh. Sucks that things couldn't be different for us.

I made friends the other day! We're supposed to be hanging out this weekend so I'm excited to have met people. Their names are Lashay and Tiffany. Tiffany has a 3 year old little boy named Colby and that's how we all started talking (Colby kept wanting to swim with me in the pool). They're pretty cool and I'm psyched to hang out with new people. They were very confused as to why I would leave Tampa for here, and all I can tell them is that I needed a change in my life and needed to start over. So now I need to make a new tag. NC Friends ;-)

My orientation for Hooters got postponed so I need to call back and figure out when it's rescheduled to. I want to start working so badly! Everyone (guys especially) keeps asking me if I'll take pictures of my uniform and post it on facebook. There are four boys especially that keep asking and they're the same four boys that I really can't stand talking to. So for the sake of those four boys, I AM NOT POSTING THE PICTURE FOR YOU!!! Boys are funny. I won't lie, I am wondering how I'll look in that uniform. It still hasn't hit me yet. I'm just hoping this isn't some cruel joke and that this job is for real.

Alright, I slept in until 9:15 today and I cannot do that tomorrow. I have too much stuff to get done tomorrow (gym, tanning, studying, UNPACKING MY CLOTHES FROM THE BOXES) and I'm being lazy. It's chilly tonight. Yay!! Goodnight blogging world!

Actually, before I go to bed, I've been thinking of something a lot lately. With the fact that my ex cheated on me, it really effin hurt. How am I going to ever date if I can't even get past the fact that it wasn't my fault he cheated? Or if it was my fault, what can I do to make sure it won't happen again? I'm still so hurt by all of it. He still made me feel like I was the only one in his life, everything was fine, and then BAM. I don't want to get hurt again.

Me Against the World

So I've already been here a week and I love it. But I'm very much stressed out. I officially start school on Monday . . . I looked at the syllabus last night and holy crap I'm in for an interesting semester to say the least. I start orientation at Hooters on Monday and I'm freaking nervous about it. The girls who work there are so pretty and they have huge boobs. I definitely don't have the boobs lol :-( Finally, I had my interview with my company on Wednesday in Charlotte. I am still getting settled here, but I would LOVE this opportunity to move to Charlotte and be on my own with this job. It's such a great job. However, I think another girl in the office is gonna get it. I mean, c'mon let's be realistic. I'd be the new girl in the office and she's been there for 3 years already. Although, the interviewer told my dad he was really impressed with my interview and how I carried myself.

AHHHHHHHHHH on top of that, I haven't had time to go out and make friends so it's not like I can go out and get a drink with a girlfriend and vent. Thank God I have my MSOS girls because they're definitely keeping me sane this week. My Tampa friends really haven't tried to contact me except a few girls. I kinda saw it coming anyway. They're busy with life, but still. You ask me to keep in touch but won't put forth the effort yourself? Meh, it is what it is, right?

Artsy Matt wrote me on Thursday asking why I haven't tried talking to him. Of course, I went to my dad for advice on what to write back. I liked him on our first date, I really did. But the more we talked over the week, the more I realized he's just not my type at all. Not only that, but I've barely had time to get settled, let alone try and talk to him. I just can't handle that right now. So I wrote him back (with the guidance of my dad lol!!) and said that I'm just so busy with school, work, and this move that it's just really hectic in my life right now. He wrote back that it was ok and that was it. As horrible as it is for me to say this, I kinda hope that he leaves me alone now. We'll see though.

I've been working out pretty much everyday and I'm still not losing weight. I'm going to cut back on my eating and see if that helps. I need to look good for Hooters! And on that note, I am hitting up the pool to get a tan. I am giving the palest of pale people a run for their money. Maybe I'll meet some super awesome amazing uber cool friends there! ;-)

. . . . although there IS a hot trainer at the gym . . . .

For As Much As She's Stumbled, She's Running.

I've been so busy that I haven't really been able to update this for the past few days. I bought a new netbook (which I'm writing on right now!) to take with me to places like Starbucks, Panera, or just for home. I can do my schoolwork on it and also write here on it. I freakin love it! I wanted the pink HP netbook but it was like 80 dollars more expensive. I couldn't justify spending that much for a netbook that does the same things as this one does.

I also got a job!! It's not the one at the company, but for now it'll do. Haha I'm gonna be a Hooters girl! :-) I was eating dinner with my dad and decided just to get the application for the hell of it. I didn't think anything would happen of it, but next thing I know I'm sitting with the manager in an interview, 1 1/2 beers in and with ratty jeans. He hired me on the spot. So I had to take this three hour course and exam on alcohol and drug safety but I passed!!! Now I've just gotta get set up for orientation and I'm good to go. I'm so excited!! I can keep going with school and still have money for bills and whatnot. I hope I make friends and meet people this way, too. It also makes me feel really pretty to know I got hired right away. I don't have the boobs at all, but I figure I can just wear my uber bras from Victoria's Secret lol. Woohoo!!!!

I went and worked out for a while yesterday, but alas, no hot guys. Oooooo but I did see a super hot guy at Walmart. I wish I would have said hi to him. Maybe next time :-)

I've been trying to keep up with my friends back home, but only a handful have written me back. My best friend hasn't asked how I'm doing or what's been going on, but my other best friend always asks what's up. I'm just ready to start over :-P

Alright, gotta have a quick breakfast. I'm going to work out, come home, and then go exploring. There's a Ross and Ulta plus a mall down the street. I still have to unpack so I'll do that later today, too.

I'm here!!! I made it!!! It took me 11 hours to get here, and it would have taken a lot less if traffic and rain hadn't slowed my travels (STUPID RAIN!!!).

I thought that I wouldn't cry because I cried a lot on Sunday. I also said goodbye to all my friends and co-workers and didn't even shed a tear. I dunno, I just thought it would be relatively easy to say bye to my mom and sister. Welllll that wasn't the case. I got in my car, set up my GPS, and then got out to say by. I just crumpled into tears. My sister, who never EVER cries, was sobbing along with me and my mom. It was just . . . it really broke my heart. It was the worse pain I've ever felt. Definitely a lot worse than a break up, not getting into the colleges I wanted, the fights with my friends, any of that. It was just this unimaginable pain I never thought I'd feel.

But after that I got on the road. It really went by fast, considering I was all alone. I zoned out a lot through most of the trip because, before I knew it, I was in North Carolina and almost to the apartment. I got to talk to my mom and sister a couple of times and I said hi to my MSOS Blackberry girls (HIIII GIRLS!!). All in all, it was a great trip. I managed to cut an hour out of the trip because it was supposed to take 12 hours. Woohoo go me!

This week my goal are to job hunt and explore the area. I'm looking at restaurant jobs right now because I need fast money and I definitely know how to serve and stuff. I applied for a position within the company I'm in now down in Charlotte so maybe I'll successfully get that job. That would be freakin amazing!! Until then, I'll just look for something that can give me a sort of income right now. I have school and bills so I really can't afford to be unemployed right now.

Wish me luck guys!!

Breakaway

These are the main girls in my life. They're the ones that I fight with, I laugh with, I roll my eyes with, I drink with, and I love. I officially said goodbye to (most) of them this week. Ok, not really goodbye, but a see you later sorta thing. My room is packed, my days are numbered here, and I just don't know what to feel at this point.

Artsy Matt contacted me from Virginia. Like I said before, I really don't feel anything for him, but his text just . . . . ummm wow. We went back and forth talking about how I'm leaving on Saturday. He wants me to contact him when I get up there so we can hang out. Ok, not bad. I told him I'm actually looking to move to Charlotte which is a couple of hours farther away. So what does he write? "If you are looking for a roommate or something like that, just let me know ;-)". NO!! I don't even really know you! Why the hell would I room with you? That really just ughhh I rolled my eyes and didn't write back.

Ummmm so yeah, that's about it.

I Hope You Had The Time of Your Life

Well, my party was amazing. I would have written yesterday, but I was resting and gearing up for work last night. Plus, I had to buy a GPS for my trip up to NC and still get my oil changed.

I was doing very well as far as keeping my emotions in check throughout the day. I didn't realize how hard it would be to have all my friends in one room, all wanting to say 'see you later' to me. I went outside to talk to my mom and I just broke down and sobbed. . . . granted the alcohol didn't help, but still. All my friends came outside and hugged me and told me everything would be fine and I will do great in NC. I'm still scared though. . . excited, but scared. I think this is the hardest part of my move, the anticipation and the buildup of me leaving.

My friend of five years came by to say bye to me. He and I have experienced college together, but he's very much a troublemaker. Always in trouble with the law and with girls. We were saying goodbye and ended up kissing. I told him that, while I do like him and he's an amazing person and such an important guy in my life, nothing can really happen with us. He's leaving for med school and I'm obviously leaving for good. So we just enjoyed each others company and then he left. He kinda calmed me down too because I was still crying so much lol.

I took quite a few pictures so as soon as I upload them, I'll post them here. But now I gotta finish packing. Ack, can't believe how real this is all becoming. I'm leaving so much behind. It's bittersweet.

Every Mile A Memory

I've never been much of a sleeper, and it's really only been recently that I've been able to even fall asleep. Tonight I have so much running through my head and I'm starting to get a sick feeling in my stomach, so I thought I'd turn here.

I leave for NC on Saturday. THIS SATURDAY. I was completely fine with moving all the way up until now. Don't get me wrong, I'm still excited, but now I'm extremely nervous. I'm leaving my friends, some whom I've known most of my life, and I'm leaving my sister. My mom will be up in NC in Octoberish, but my sister's staying here because she has an amazing job, and she has her own apartment with her boyfriend, so moving is out of the question. I'm scared to leave everything behind. I know I'm going to make some more amazing friends, but it's still nervewracking. I'll love NC, but it's just the fact I'm leaving everything I've ever known behind that's making me all icky inside.

Plus, it'll really show who my TRUE friends are. I have had this going away party planned for a month and it's tomorrow. I actually let one of my friends know a few days before I posted the event on facebook and she promised she would come (she was the one who introduced me to my ex and we were best friends for quite some time. She road tripped with me to Texas to meet up with him and her boyfriend when they returned from Iraq). Welllllll fast forward to this week. I text her a few times, asking whether she was coming because I really needed to know and I was hoping to see her before I leave for good. She writes me tonight "Sorry I won't be able to make it. Chris surprised me with a weekend in #@@!(#(!. I'll miss you though!" Wait what?? You knew about this for a month. I said you could have brought him, so this means you probably didn't even mention wanting to go. You knew I've been trying to get in touch with you all week. I know you keep your phone on you and you constantly bitch about your boyfriend and how much you can't stand him and want to leave him for a guy you met on W.O.W. THIS shows me that you really don't have any feelings whether I'm leaving or not. Whatever, like I said, this just shows who my friends are and who they aren't. . . . or something like that?

Alright, I'm going to TRY and go to bed again. I feel like I want to throw up because I'm so nervous, but hopefully it'll be daylight soon and I won't have to worry about sleeping lol. Yay party!!

P.S. I know this is supposed to be about me looking for love, but I haven't even had time for myself this past week. lol, I promise once I move this will turn more toward that :-)